感动得流泪。。！

一时的冲动。。。我在想，我到底会不会呢？
我的朋友今天生日，我们买了一份礼物给她。 可是，就是很普通的仪式而已。但当她收了另外一份礼物时，当场流泪。。。 那个感觉很不自在，可是也是很难得的一次。
我第一次看见这一幕的表情，发呆了一下。原来眼泪也可以是开心，感谢 和高兴的。
回想起来了这些年的我，有过这么的一次冲动流泪吗？答案很明显，我没有。回忆里只出现了一片空白。我哭，是因伤心-可怜的我。我知道想这一刻一定是很珍贵，也是很难得的一次。要有这个效果，一定要个很要好的朋友才行。他/她要了解你的一切，而可以知道你的需要。不许很贵，不许豪华， 只需要一个可以打动你的心窗的礼物。
它可以是一句话，一个字，一样对别人很不起眼的小玩意儿，但在收货人的心目中有一个无可取代的位置。
这真的很难，我到目前为此还没有哪个福份，所以只好默默的等待。。。
难得的一个经验。
我也要开心地流泪。。。 不再享有悲剧的出现，可以吗？

Adrenaline is working hard!

yeah, it is the "fight-or-flight" hormone- it plays a central role of short-term stress hormone.

Yes, this is obviously drilling in me now! Exams around the corner, and I'm not ready. I know if i get more time, I'll still not be ready for it. This is the dilemma in me and it is always there, indeed.

I'm must study hard.

STOP BUGGING ME!!! After Thursday, I can be a freeman again!

I'm obsessed with all the freedom i could have. Can't wait till then.

Extremely, excited... MOM, I'll be there soon!

Cheers, folks~

Bipolar Disorder.

How can this be? I'm feeling lonely inside me. I don't really know what is going on inside me. Feel kinda depressed, unable too focus.

What the hell... I know this is not the time to think this, i got something more important to work and prepare on. What am I thinking?

I might have bipolar disorder- always get to extremities without a reason.

Hey, Angeline, just keep working on. No time to spare~

Anyone have motivation to spare? I need some motivation here.

Awful Truth!

Me, trying to move forward but i do not have enough motivation to move on.

Seeing people around me moving faster, I'm feeling bad. I know, I'm too narrow-minded. Although it is awful to admit this, it is how I feel. I hate this damn feelings.

I want to get rid of this feeling. God, please help me to bare with this. I don't want to lose my friends, I want to be open-minded. I need to be generous in any sense, especially in this condition. I want to be cool with it- letting the horrified feeling go away from me.

I think I need more assurance from others in any sense. I need to build up a stronger inner me, in order to overcome all this hiding fear in me. This is a new challenge, i suppose. I looked at others and admiring their life. Even it is just a lay person passed by with full confidence.

I shall stop looking and keep moving on, face myself frankly. I need to be strong. I know, if I want to impress someone, the first thing I need to impress is myself. Make myself feel confident in me. Self talk works sometimes for me, though. Letting myself know positive thoughts is good. Reminding myself- mistake is part of the learning process, repetition should be avoided, i suppose.

I need to see a grow in me- mentally build up and well prepared in order to achieve my dreams. As big brother used to say, " there are no free lunch in this world." So it is better to earn your own rights before the world eliminates you to play your part in it.

Tell everyone, you mean much more than just a "lay person."

EARN YOUR RIGHTS TO STAY!

Love ya all, folks. It is time for me to do so.
Gotta catch up with my studies before it is too late to regrets all my deeds.

Cheers, folks...
BE POSITIVE, I'M POSITIVE, I'M POSITIVE...!

YES, I AM!!!!

Another day, another blog.

Yeah, i think I really like blogging.
I can't wait another day to come and i can write my pieces and bits in my life.

Okay, today, i felt that life ain't that easy.
Indeed, peer pressure will directly influence one's final decision, judgment and perspective. Damn it, i hate it. People just can't be true anymore and thence the "lies" make their way into our world.

As people say, this world was covered with "LIES." There are also "WHITE LIES" that are meant to alleviate the sadness and grief. I truly believe some lies do help but most of them sucks.

It is time, to differentiate the truth and lies, as an grown up.

"No pain, no gain!" This is what i learned after all this years.
Everything have it 's own balance point; the homeostatic level must be achieved in order to get the system to operate better. So now, i shall torture myself - read day 'n' night to prepare for the exam. Maybe it may pose me to a brighter future. Who knows?

lol. Enough of crapping. I shall move on.

Cheers, folks.
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!

Mom is here...

Not here right by my side, but she is at Aus already. I can't wait to see her.
Want to cuddle her so much. God, another week, i can make it..
I'll pass my exam, and then i'll fly all the way to Brisbane to have some fun.

Miss my mom's cooking and scolding. I'm so used to it, even i'm here in aus, i still miss her "extremely loud" voice. She is the only person that are qualified to yell and shout at me. Although, sometimes i'm really pissed, it is still fun to think about it. She yell for my good, but she'll never understand my thinking. Cuz our knowledge/age gap, we have different rationale.

But this doesn't mean, we can't communicate. We used to talk heaps. I hate it the most when she cry, it makes me feel the pain and sadness too. I hope mom will never give up on me, although sometime i'm acting like a barbarian.

MOM, I LOVE U..! I'll b there with you soon... Really soon. 12 more days to go...

Another day passed.

Today, it is my dad's birthday, i hereby wish him a all da best.
Live well, Eat well most of all have fun...
Hardly i can catch a smiley on his face.
He must be always pressured and on stress, i suppose.
Hope things can become better, and he will have a good life.


Me? i just watch a movie, cost me 10 aus, which is not too bad for now, if you convert it to ringgit malaysia, rm... some ppl might not want to watch it. But i get a discounted price, it suppose to be 15 aus. lol. yeah can't believe this, people is paying this much. But luckily, the movie is worth on its price. Ooops.. I forgot to mention which movie I've watched, " it is NARNIA II." At first, i thought i won't really like it, but after the 3 hours in cinema, I'm actually enjoying the movie. Let get a round applause for the mouse in the movie, it is really hilarious with all kind da move it has. lol.. It is so alike to pussy in boots in sherk- the movie.

Anyway, i enjoyed the movie and relax myself from the exams tense.