main reason for weight gain!

1. Emotionally unstable AKA Binge eating- it can be emotional when people under pressure, for example food as stress reliever; food reduces stress (mentally only, it increases physical burdens)
2. Irregular meal patterns -not eating main meals on time , snack too much in between meals (decrease satiety and increase the urge of munching).
3. Unnoticeable extra calories - junk food and drinks that are energy dense (aka high calories food) such as confectionery, lollies, potato chips, soft drinks, cordials and etc (having during parties, it is unavoidable calories).
4. Alcohol- the most important drink in the world, that makes us tipsy and gone crazy (it is loading us more than what we needs, esp. in drinking games).
5.Fast food- they're coated with oil that makes you looks big in the end(every grams of fats counts)!

In summary, the reason that we gained weight is due to our consumption is greater than our expenditure (eating in is greater than giving out that very much depends on the physical activity level) . When you are curious why can she eat this much and not gaining as much as you did, you must also think about her workload.

Things you can do to reduce weight, is that JUST STOP EATING AS USUAL, cut down your portion size of foods. Fruit and vegetables is a good option, it increase satiety and low in calorie. In addition, it is good for health! Why not you eat fruits and vegetables more?

A short post to remind myself of why I'm gaining these extra weight that makes me look like a "PIG!" lol. It is so unacceptable!

In love or not, doesn't really matters.

Currently, I'm thinking, are we really in love? Why don't he know what I'm thinking in mind? Why can't he juz understand me? I juz got a tooth surgery done. I know it is not a big matter. I'm still hoping that you can come over to pay me a visit and comfort me a bit... my tooth is really hurting, indeed.

I waited for a day, thinking at the day time he might be busy... been waiting for nothing till the end. I can't hold my tempered anymore. I rang him at night. He doesn't seems to feel anything. Besides, he can tells, I doesn't sounds right. He did asked what happened? but I feel very reluctant to tell him that I'm very angry b'cuz u didn't intend to come over to visit me. I think he should knwo the reason for me being in a ad mood. I was thinking, if he cares about me, he will come over to gimme some comfort naturally. Now only I realise, it is wrong. IT IS SO WRONG!

Forget about it, I'm juz too tired to argue. Let me take a rest... I need fresh air. I don't really wanna trapped in love anymore. At least not deeply blinded in love. I need my own rooms, I can be strong and tough. Being independent is the way to be and the way it should be. Love don't do anygood.

Another runaway~ WOHOO!

It is not the first time but will be the last time.

If this is serious, I'll be more than happy. Just please go away and don't come home.
This is your decision and I do respect y0u as an adult. I reckon all action is done after a deep analyze. Thus, you should know everyone should take a full responsible on their own acts. If this is good for you, please do help yourself, the door is just right in front of you. Go away from us, if this is the best way. Maybe this is not a good solution. I reckon it will be the best solution for now but.

I hate you people. You all ruin my life. You STOPPED us being happy. You'll not have a good prospect in the rest of your life. IDIOTS that create trouble and do not resolve it. Such a reckless middle aged man. Just know how to demand, but not thinking of what he has give in. FXXX OFF! Before you ask for sth, please do think that do you worth for it? Stupid asshole.

Being critical... that is the only way.

I think critical thinking is making its way to our life.
People used to says, "love is blind." I don't belief it anymore, when it comes back to reality, love is not blind anymore... We must be down on earth about how is the LOVE we think, gonna work out in our life.
I don't think I can find the dream lover, but I'm able to have a reliable partner.
We used to ask each other, among our friends, will you like you're couple to love you more than you love him/her? Some one prefer to be loved, whereas the others prefer to love. I think I prefer to be loved- it is selfish, i reckon. If you love one more, you'll be more vulnerable to get hurt than anyone in the relationship- my rationale. I know the best way is equal love, but this equal relationship will not exist. To give in or compromise all time, will eventually have a massive explosion, I deeply belief on.
I'm in doubt on us, will you be the one? Will I being able to give up everythg and walk to you? All these question will not be answered. There is no rooms for us to discuss about all this, we'll always end up in big fights. Thus, I avoid it all time- I know I shouldn't. But all I know is that I have my own burden to bare on, I need my rooms to breath in fresh air. If there is too much restrictions, it is like suffocating me.
My dear boy, can you please think in my point of view? I love you, but I can't compromised any further. MY LIMITS GETs BEYOND WHAT I COULD GIVE. Don't demand too much, I'm no different- I'm just another lay person.
I really hope things will work, but if it doesn't- no complains. We're different after all.

Stress period arrived...

Why am I always stress out so easily? Why am I always not well prepared? DAMN... I want to chill out... After this assignment, I'm gonna boost on my revision. But before revision take place, I think I need a good rest. So saturday and sunday is my day off. I'll start my revision on monday. Angeline u must start before it is too late. You'll be super duple stress out later when time comes.... work hard... move on... You'll grad on time, this time. understand? move move move....

人質

我和你啊　存在一種危險關係
彼此挾持　這另一部分的自己
本以為這完整了愛的定義
那就乖乖的守護著你

相愛變成　猜忌懷疑的爛遊戲
規則是要　憋著呼吸越靠越近
但你的溫柔　是我唯一沉溺
你是愛我的　就不怕有縫隙
在我心上用力的開一槍
讓一切歸零　在這聲巨響
如果愛是說什麼都不能放
我不掙扎　反正我也　沒差

人質在這一刻得到釋放
相愛的純粹落得如此下場
你滿意嗎　我們都別　說謊

words...

Words that i can't anyone. Words that i kept in my heart for all this time. Words that i need to release it, before I just break and fall apart inside me.

I hate my relationship. It always makes me feel crappy. Why must we all suffer? I hate it. I really FUXK UP in my relationship! WE've being together 5 years- 2 years together and 3 years apart. I'm at australia and you're in m'sia- 8 hours flight! Damn, is this the only difference between us? Nope, for sure. There are more than this we should take care of.

Ｗｅ　ｈａｖｅ　ｄｉｆｆｅｒｅｎｔ　ｐｅｒｓｐｅｃｔｉｖｅｓ　ａｎｄ　ａｒｇｕｍｅｎｔ　ａｒｉｓｅ．　Ｄａｍｎ！　Ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ａｒｇｕｍｅｎｔ　ｉｓ　ｃａｓｕａｌ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｉｎ　ａ　ｒｅｌａｔｉｏｎｓｈｉｐ．　Ｗｈｙ　ｍｕｓｔ　Ｉ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｉｎ？　Ｐｐｌ　ｕｓｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｂｅｌｉｅｖｅ，　ｉｆ　ｙｏｕ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｐａｒｔｎｅｒ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｔｈａｎ　ｈｅ／ｓｈｅ　ｄｏｅｓ；　ｙｏｕ＇ｌｌ　ｓｕｆｆｅｒ　ｌｏｔｓ．　Ｉ　ｂｅｌｉｅｖｅ　ｉｔ　ｎｏｗ．　Ｂｕｔ　Ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｎｏｔ　ｃｌｅａｒ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｙ　ｆｅｅｌｉｎｇｓ　ｒｉｇｈｔ　ｎｏｗ．　Ｄｏ　ｉ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｏｒ　ｈａｔｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｍｏｒｅ？　Ｉ　ｈａｔｅ　ｉｔ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｙｏｕ　ｓｈｏｗ　ｍｅ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｆａｃｅ－ｋｉｎｄａ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｕｐ　ｂ＇ｃｕｚ　ｙｏｕ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｉ＇ｍ　ｈｏｐｅｌｅｓｓ？Ａｍ　Ｉ　ｔｈａｔ　ｂａｄ　ｔｈｏ？　ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　ｉｍｐｏｓｓｉｂｌｅ，　ｉ　ｒｅｃｋｏｎ．　Ｉ＇ｍ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｎｏｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｏｒｓｔ　ｔｙｐｅ　ｏｆ　ｇｉｒｌ　ｙｏｕ　ｃａｎ　ｆｉｎｄ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｗｏｒｌｄ．Ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｅｅｌｓ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｓｈｉｔ！　Ｉｔ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｄｏｅｓ．　

ＢＴＷ，　Ｉ　ｄｏｎ＇ｔ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｗａｎｔ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｇｈｔ　ａｎｙ　ｌｏｎｇｅｒ．．．　ｓｉｃｋ　ｏｆ　ａｌｌ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｓｈｉｔｓ．　Ｉ　ｒａｔｈｅｒ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｕｐ　ｏｎ　ｕｓ，　ｉｆ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｍｕｓｔ　ｂｅ　ｃｏｎｔｉｎｕｅ．　Ｉ　ｒｅｃｋｏｎ　Ｉ＇ｖｅ　ｗｏｒｊ　ｈａｒｄ　ｅｎｏｕｇｈ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｒｅｌａｔｉｏｎｓｈｉｐ．　Ｉ　ｔｒｉｅｄ　ｍｙ　ｂｅｓｔ　ｔｏ　ｇｉｖｅ　ｗｈａｔｅｖｅｒ　ｉ　ｃｏｕｌｄ．　

Ｙｏｕ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｃｈａｎｇｅ，　ｙｏｕ＇ｒｅｓｏ　ｓｅｌｆ－ｃｅｎｔｒｅｄ．Ｉｎ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｍｉｎｄ，　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ　ａｒｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｃｈｅｓｓ　ｉｎ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｗｏｒｌｄ．　Ｎｏ　ｏｎｅ　ｃａｎ　ｂｅ　ｉｍｐｏｒｔａｎｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｙｏｕ　ｉｎｃｌｕｄｅｓ　ｍｅ．　Ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　ｔｈａｔ　ａｎｄ　ｆｅｅｌ　ｂａｄ　ｆｏｒ　ｉｔ．　Ｉ　ａｌｗａｙｓ　ａｖｏｉｄ　ｔｏ　ｍｅｎｔｉｏｎｅｄ　ｔｈａｔ　ｃｕｚ　Ｉ　ｋｎｅｗ　ｉｔ　ｃａｎ　ｈｕｒｔ　ｍｅ　ｂａｄｌｙ．　Ｉ＇ｍａｃｔｉｎｇ　ｌｉｋｅ　ａｎ　ｏｓｔｒｉｃｈ－ｔｒｙｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｃｏｖｅｒｅｄ　ｍｙ　ｈｅａｄ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｓａｎｄｓ　ａｎｄ　ｐｒｅｔｅｎｄ　ｔｏ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ．　Ｔｈｉｓ　ｉｓ　ｓｏ　ｓｔｕｐｉｄ　ｏｆ　ｍｅ．　Ｔｉｌｌ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｌｅａｒｎ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｓｔｒｏｎｇ？　Ｔｉｌｌ　ｗｈｅｎ　Ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｂｅ　ｉｎｄｅｐｅｎｄｅｎｔ？　Ｉ　ｒｅｌｙ　ｔｏｏｏ　ｍｕｃｈ　ｏｎ　ｙｏｕ，　ｔｉｌｌ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ＇ｍ　ｔｏｔａｌｌｙ　ｆｒｅａｋ　ｏｕｔ　ｔｏ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｂｅ　ｔｈｅｒｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｅ　ａｎｙｍｏｒｅ．Ｉ　ｂｅｇ　ｆｏｒ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｆｏｒｇｉｖｅｎｅｓｓ．　Ｉ　ｂｅｇ　ｆｏｒ　ｉｔ　ｓｏ　ｄｅｓｐｅｒａｔｅｌｙ　ｔｉｌｌ　Ｉ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ　ｌｏｓｔ　ｍｙ　ｐｒｉｄｅ　ａｎｄ　ｄｉｇｎｉｔｙ．　Ｙｏｕ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｐｕｓｈｅｓ　ｔｏ　ｍｕｃｈ－Ｉ　ｆｅｅｌ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｄｏｎ＇ｔａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｌｏｖｅｓ　ｍｅ．　Ａｌｌ　ｙｏｕ　ｗａｎｔｓ　ｉｓ　ａ　ｐｕｐｐｅｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｄｏ　ａｎｄ　ｄｏｅｓ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ　ｏｎ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｆａｖｏｒ．　Ｔｈｅｙ　ｈａｖｅ　ｎｏ　ｌｉｆｅ，　ｎｏ　ｆｕｎ　ａｎｄ　ｎｏ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔｓ．　Ｔｈｉｓ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｙｏｕｒ　ｉｄｅａｌ　ｐａｒｔｎｅｒ，　ａｍ　Ｉ　ｒｉｇｈｔ？　

Ｕｎｆｏｒｔｕｎａｔｅｌｙ，　Ｉ＇ｍｊｕｓｔ　ａｎｏｔｈｅｒ　ｌａｙ　ｍａｎ，　ｗｉｔｈ　ｓｅｌｆｉｓｈ　ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔｓ　ａｎｄ　ｎｅｅｄｓ．　Ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｓｏｍｅｏｎｅ　ｔｈａｔ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｍｅ　ｔｏｏ．　Ｉ　ｃａｎ＇ｔｇｉｖｅ　ｉｎ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｙ　ｗｈｏｌｅ　ｌｉｆｅ．　Ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｓｏｍｅ　ｏｎｅ　ｔｏ　ｐａｍｐｅｒｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｔｏｏ．　Ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｔｈａｎ　ｙｏｕ　ｋｎｏｗ．　Ｗｉｌｌ　ｙｏｕ　ｅｖｅｎ　ｔｒｙ　ｔｏ　ｆｉｔ　ｉｎ　ｍｙ　ｓｈｏｅｓ？Ｃａｎ＇ｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｂｅ　ａ　ｌｉｔｔｌｅ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｃａｒｉｎｇ？　Ｗｈｙ　ｃａｎ＇ｔ　ｙｏｕ？　Ｉｔ　ｍａｋｅｓ　ｍｅ　ｓｏ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｔａｌｋ　ｔｏ　ｙｏｕ，　ｗｈｅｎ　ｙｏｕ＇ｒｅ　ｏｎ　ｓｕｃｈ　ａ　ｈｉｇｈ　ｐｉｔｃｈ．　Ｉ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｈａｔｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｓｈｏｕｔｉｎｇ　ａｔ　ｍｅ．．．