Being critical... that is the only way.

I think critical thinking is making its way to our life.
People used to says, "love is blind." I don't belief it anymore, when it comes back to reality, love is not blind anymore... We must be down on earth about how is the LOVE we think, gonna work out in our life.
I don't think I can find the dream lover, but I'm able to have a reliable partner.
We used to ask each other, among our friends, will you like you're couple to love you more than you love him/her? Some one prefer to be loved, whereas the others prefer to love. I think I prefer to be loved- it is selfish, i reckon. If you love one more, you'll be more vulnerable to get hurt than anyone in the relationship- my rationale. I know the best way is equal love, but this equal relationship will not exist. To give in or compromise all time, will eventually have a massive explosion, I deeply belief on.
I'm in doubt on us, will you be the one? Will I being able to give up everythg and walk to you? All these question will not be answered. There is no rooms for us to discuss about all this, we'll always end up in big fights. Thus, I avoid it all time- I know I shouldn't. But all I know is that I have my own burden to bare on, I need my rooms to breath in fresh air. If there is too much restrictions, it is like suffocating me.
My dear boy, can you please think in my point of view? I love you, but I can't compromised any further. MY LIMITS GETs BEYOND WHAT I COULD GIVE. Don't demand too much, I'm no different- I'm just another lay person.
I really hope things will work, but if it doesn't- no complains. We're different after all.

Stress period arrived...

Why am I always stress out so easily? Why am I always not well prepared? DAMN... I want to chill out... After this assignment, I'm gonna boost on my revision. But before revision take place, I think I need a good rest. So saturday and sunday is my day off. I'll start my revision on monday. Angeline u must start before it is too late. You'll be super duple stress out later when time comes.... work hard... move on... You'll grad on time, this time. understand? move move move....

人質

我和你啊　存在一種危險關係
彼此挾持　這另一部分的自己
本以為這完整了愛的定義
那就乖乖的守護著你

相愛變成　猜忌懷疑的爛遊戲
規則是要　憋著呼吸越靠越近
但你的溫柔　是我唯一沉溺
你是愛我的　就不怕有縫隙
在我心上用力的開一槍
讓一切歸零　在這聲巨響
如果愛是說什麼都不能放
我不掙扎　反正我也　沒差

人質在這一刻得到釋放
相愛的純粹落得如此下場
你滿意嗎　我們都別　說謊