charlie bit my finger... again! cute charlie.

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Sunday, March 7, 2010

Habits

It has now been a habit of mine, to report to someone. There are times that I'm reluctant to do so. This isn't only my rights now, matters that involve more than one. This is the world that we're living. A reality that I couldn't escape from. I'm running so fast till I can't catch my breath. The world that accommodated millions, billions or trillions and even more of particles to live as one. It is extremely hard to find the balance of it. I guess, this is the main reason that we fight for our own rights, we argue for our own believes and we eventually created war in order to to gain more. We rather sacrifice the others, we're such a selfish bastards.

I hate to compare myself with the others. I want to live a life that I treasure and happy with. Not filled with stress and anger. There isn't only a way can leads you to success, I'm just using another path that is within my capability and not bothering the others. There is always a junction in life that needs decision. I'm ready for it, and not to regret with my choices.

Sincerely apologize...

Sorry for being incompetent, sorry for disappointing you, sorry for not noticing you soon enough, sorry for not matching your expectancy. I'm just me and I'm really sorry. I'll try my best to work harder to meet my insufficiency. I'll strike for the best in future.

Thank you for all you've given, it is irreplacecible. I'll make use of it to the fullest and build up on it further more.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Bring it on!

Life is so twisted, but that is okay!

Grieving, a process that needs time. Although it won't help, it is the only way to express sadness. Sad of being useless, clueless and most of all worthless. It is time to build up the sense of belonging. Belong to part of the world and contribute to the society. Being stupid isn't a good reason to give up. Work under your ability. Increase your capability by lifelong learning.

I'm not giving up, I'm trying my best to learn in a positive way. Although nothing can be worst for this very moment. Life ain't just this. I'm sure, I'm able to create something good out of this mess. Build up a better me and prepare for future.

I'm sorry to disappoint you, but this won't be it. There is more to come in future. I'll work on what I have and build on more! Prepare myself for a better future!

Thanks for giving me all you can and now it is my turn to give it back! What I've decided might not sounds wise enough for you, but this is what I've decided and I will take the full responsible out of it.