Being critical... that is the only way.

I think critical thinking is making its way to our life.
People used to says, "love is blind." I don't belief it anymore, when it comes back to reality, love is not blind anymore... We must be down on earth about how is the LOVE we think, gonna work out in our life.
I don't think I can find the dream lover, but I'm able to have a reliable partner.
We used to ask each other, among our friends, will you like you're couple to love you more than you love him/her? Some one prefer to be loved, whereas the others prefer to love. I think I prefer to be loved- it is selfish, i reckon. If you love one more, you'll be more vulnerable to get hurt than anyone in the relationship- my rationale. I know the best way is equal love, but this equal relationship will not exist. To give in or compromise all time, will eventually have a massive explosion, I deeply belief on.
I'm in doubt on us, will you be the one? Will I being able to give up everythg and walk to you? All these question will not be answered. There is no rooms for us to discuss about all this, we'll always end up in big fights. Thus, I avoid it all time- I know I shouldn't. But all I know is that I have my own burden to bare on, I need my rooms to breath in fresh air. If there is too much restrictions, it is like suffocating me.
My dear boy, can you please think in my point of view? I love you, but I can't compromised any further. MY LIMITS GETs BEYOND WHAT I COULD GIVE. Don't demand too much, I'm no different- I'm just another lay person.
I really hope things will work, but if it doesn't- no complains. We're different after all.