Scolding means... caring?

We Chinese believe, when someone scolded you, means that they do care about you. They show their concern on you. Although, I reckon that it is correct, it is still hurting when the scolding is on wrong timing.

I lost my purse, I'm so messed up and I try to find a place for comfort. All I have when i get to reach people at that moment was scolding and blaming.

Today, I get a call from daddy- he sounds so nice. I know he is angry as well but he just speak it through. Thank you, dad. When my dad passed it to mom, she yelled at me. This is really hurting. She said, "serve you right, always being so careless and I'm worried about you and your future. I think you gonna failed for your subjects. You better stop from your study, since it is worthless. ' At this very moment, I have mixed feeling. I know she say this without really thinking of the outcome of it. She might not even noticed she hurts me so deeply. I've loss to make an effort to tell her I found my purse again- I'm lucky enough. I just stay silent and listened to all she has to say. Me thinking silently, in the purse, all the money is my money, mom. I earned them with my labor work. After I lost them, I'm crying- inside me as well. I tried so hard to pretend that I don't care and I will work harder to earn it back. I know how hard daddy works for us. I know more than you do. I know daddy is struggling for us, mom. Bare with me 2 more years, I can do it as well. I'll earn all you gave and pay you back. I'm aiming for it. I'm trying really hard. When you said those words, it hurts, it really does. I can feel as if the knife stabbed right into my heart.

Deep down inside me is full of scar, you didn't realize that all her words do count and accumulates. I hope not to mentally breakdown. This is not the first time for all this hurtful words and i know it won't be the last time. I'm trying to avoid to hear all this words, therefore being in-denial serve the best. This is so pathetic isn't it? I should forget the negative side of it and move on.

Why can't people think ways in both sides? Why they always blame you before they know the truth?

Mom, I'm sorry to spend more than you expected to- grow me up. I'll for sure pay back, no matter how hard it takes. I swear, I'll repay you even it take a life time. Dad, I always do feel guilty for you, there is no doubt on that- I'm sorry again. I bet you'll not have such a daughter like me in your next life- I wished you to have a good life. Sorry that I've to always burdened you. This will be the last I've ever need from you dad, please bare with me. It is coming to an end for sure.

Folks, always think at the the pros and cons. Nothing can ever be perfect.

I lost my purse..!

WTH, really unbelievable... shits do happen, unexpectedly. I really can't understand why this happen on me. This is annoying and frustrating! I lost my purse when I'm actually enjoying a day trip at Sydney. I'm not sure whether it is a pick pocket or I drop it. Damn... This is the worst feeling ever I had. However, I'm blessed there are friends to guide me what to do. Call to bank and credit cards company to de-activate the cards. This is really shitty. At least, I'm not losing sth important, i suppose.

This teach us, to keep an eye on everything, you might have it this minute but lose it unnoticed the next seconds. God damn it!

Give me my purse back! pls.... I beg for some mercy...

freestyle at brisbane...

This is a super duper YUM desert i ever had. It is a cafe named "FREESTYLE," that serve extraordinary YUM deserts. I mean some of them. For sure, I'll show you some nice picture that I've snapped.

Yes, aren't they pretty. They're, indeed, delicious. Although it fulfilled my appetite, it makes me feel guilty after having them. I can imagine how much sugar and fat the food content and the extra calories I'm having. No doubt that I've gained some weight. They're irresistible, indulgence of life- chocolate, lollies, ice-cream and etc. They're all high in sugar and fat, I've named them as "DEVIL's FOOD!" They are like the devils in real life that makes me gain lots n lots of weight!

Boring....

Heaps boring here...

I'm trying to handmade, my bf's b'day card. It is unbelievably hard. Damn it... The ingredient to make the cards is always lacking of this and that! Bought heaps stuff still can't manage to finish up the card!

I believe, the handmade, cards are worth it's price. trust me, it is more than just a card. It is really time consuming! maybe i'm not talented at all. Been working on this card couple days... hope that i can finish it...

oh man... printer's not working.. can't print things out. It is time to change a printer!

I'm impressed..!

These days, blogger actually can earn a living. Aren't it impressive? This is another career for people. So mate, what are you people waiting. Keep blogging and impress others with your blog. You might be the next popular or to say "hottest" blogger.

I heard from my friend, actually in S'pore, the bloggers do challenge each other and worst come to worst, there are a court case. Isn't it hilarious? What is on people's mind? Anyway, I can't be bothered with those.

I think blogging provides me room to be the true me, escape from real life. A place for me to hide from the reality and have peace in mind.

Anyway, people, i'm not a "PRO-BLOGGER," I'll stop here with my stories...

HAve a nice day, folks.

Cheers~~